Once again I tried to do the “go back to work and put the children in school thing”. Over the holidays my younger children basically told me that enough was enough. They wanted to homeschool again.
I knew that it would happen sooner than later but I thought it would be me in convince mode. I figured I could last until June, until I “get things in order”. You know the phrase we say when we have a plan that may or not work…
They must have been reading my thoughts. Have you ever felt bad about taking your children to school. Well, I know many people have reasons to feel that way, but I’m talking about a “good school”. One where the teachers DO care, and the environment is nice.
I felt like a terrible mom dropping my children of at school everyday. I have been homeschooling since my first son was born 15 years ago, and he has only been schooled outside of home for 3-4 of those years (off & on). I felt like I was depriving my children of the BEST education–a home education. I felt that I was trading their lives for money. At the same time I felt that I needed to be “sensible”. We need money to survive, so maybe sending them to school was the best option.
Winter break was the turning point. Our time together made us all relize that we are truly happy when we are learning together as a family. Our home is at peace. Nothing can replace that feeling for me or my children.
So now, “reality” sets in, and the bills need to be paid, and my husband cannot do it all by himself. I was tormented for 4 days, trying to decide which road to follow. My spirit which tells me to bring my children home NOW, or my thinker brain which tells me that putting my business on the backburner will set us back financially big time.
Well, you guessed it. I went with bringing my children home. I decided to really look at my business and see how I can truly make it work from home, and around our homeschool schedule. I decided not to play with their education by flip-flopping them back and forth into the school system. I also decided to stick with my first job as a homeschooling mommy, and ALL other jobs have to get in where they fit in.
I finally drew a line in the sand. As long as I have health & strength, my children will continue to homeschool through high school.